Feelings and relationships; sensitivity and awareness

Tree of life artpiece.

1. Love is difficult. So much hurt created from this most beautiful feeling. It seems to be more difficult than simply a good source of wellbeing. More like a high-risk high-reward type of thing.
2. How is one to act when feelings change from one week to another? One knows this to be true in everyday life. No feeling, even love, is very lasting. One can remember how deeply one felt about something at a certain point in time — only to change or forget the depth of that feeling later on in life. It is impossible to “keep track of” all feelings one has had towards different things in the past. Or at least it is not very practical because feelings change.
3. The scenario where one needs to remember how one felt at some point and then keep acting according to that seems counterintuitive. Then one would need to build a massive web of relationships and keep track of them all the time in order to react in a way that is consistent with what has happened in the past. Very complicated. One forgotten deeply felt feeling, one forgotten key thing, one misstep — and that relationship might fall apart. Some say this is why we’ve evolved intelligence and consciousness at all — because we are such social beings.
4. It seems there could be a more straightforward, easier way to go about this. One is presented with new scenarios all the time and new feelings regarding them. How should one deal with them, if not based purely on past experiences? Great sensitivity and awareness are key factors. One needs to be very in tune with mind and body to react healthily to all different sorts of scenarios — reacting with real love. This does not mean the romantic type of love — simply the love which causes joy and immense wish for the wellbeing of others.
5. This sensitivity acts out of love, not out of any personal need or goal. It is so simple that perhaps it allows the mind to be freer, more open to really see what is going on — instead of calculating past relationship equations constantly. So interestingly it might free up the mind to make better judgments and act more clearly — because the past is not there clouding the mind all the time. Just sensitivity and awareness.
6. This type of love, sensitivity, and awareness allows for a more relaxed way of being around people and being in relationships. No need to remember what has been felt said, and discussed before. Simply this sensitivity allows navigation and action without causing hurt — most of the time. Of course, sometimes it is hard. Sometimes it doesn’t work. Sometimes it won’t work.
7. Sometimes one is not in this sensitive state and causes unnecessary hurt because of this lack of sensitivity. One should have a burning flame within oneself for this sensitivity, this awareness —it must be an intense flame, a deep feeling, a real understanding —otherwise, it will flicker. And that's alright, it will flicker.
8. The fascinating part is to be aware of those moments when it flickers. To be aware when one is not sensitively, acutely aware. Being aware of those moments should be of utmost importance to oneself. Those are the real moments, those are the key times one needs this awareness. Because when one is sensitively aware rarely anything goes wrong, really. It is the time one is not sensitively aware that badthings happen.

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